Hello guys.
I know i haven't posted for a while now so i'm back.
Today's going to be a long post so bear with me.
I'm going to rant abt past events and recent ones.
And if you're the type that cries easily and know that there are stuffs in here that refers to you, please be warned.
Do not read this in an emotional state.
You'll get even more emotional.
And just so you guys know, the names are all substituted by the first letter of the name only.

I think we've gotten really really distant this few weeks.
Normally we see each other and cross each other, we'll at least say hi and a smile.
Now? We just cross each other without even giving a second glance.
I think maybe it’s due to the fact that you were never the open kind.
You preferred to keep things in and pretended that nothing actually happens.
And me?
Well maybe I didn’t dare to even say hi cause I was taken in by your friend.
I don’s know but I think it’s kinda a type of fear that made me act this way.
I guess this is like the whole E saga all over again?
Maybe you actually do realized that things were going to be downhill.
Maybe you don’t but I don’t know.
Maybe you do feel the same way as I do.
So maybe you think I gave up on this friendship alr?
But no. I don’t that someone who gave up on a friendship would still remember every single memory?
I don’t think anyone would actually remember every single thing this clearly.
Ok yes, people would, especially if they treasure this friendship this much.
I mean I remember every single detail and memory.
Some bad, some good, but the fact that I remembered everything from the start tills the end show something right?
K so I shall summarize some stuffs bah.

Sooo.. I think the first time we actually interacted properly was in the Malay language course thing?
I remember you were sitting behind me and E but we didn’t really talk to you.
You were sleeping in class and you woke up promptly when the cher said it was break.
So you had break with me and E and then you moved to sit with us after break and for all the subsequent lessons.
Since you were hanging out with B at that time and hence we don’t really talk in class, only in Malay class.
Then came the day you fought with B and then you came over and ask me and E if you could join us for recess.
Ofc we were a little hesitant but well we allowed and then you started hanging out with me.
You even started sitting with me in English.
That was when you started really telling me stuffs about yourself and me, myself.
I got really close to you subsequently.
And I remembered sitting with you in Malay and having a mini picnic then.
I started getting to know you and went to your house to hang out and all.
I also remembered I once asked if you could drive me home after school like jokingly and you agreed.
I was pretty much shocked but I realized that could be the start of it all.
So we got closer, hanged out more often.
Got to know you better, like so much better.
You told me so much stuffs abt yourself and did not like hide anything at all.
Then you invited me to your Christmas chalet that year and I was quite touched.
For you were the first ever person to actually invite me anywhere and like actually manage to stand me till then.
So S came too and she eventually joined us.
We became threesome and there was the big fight with E and all.
But you stood there by me.
Then you joined me in my tuition class and everything.
Even though we were fighting like almost every hour that time (I’m exaggerating the every hour part) we still pretty much patched back after 5 mins?
So after that, you went China with S and came back fighting with her?
I mean I wasn’t sure what had happened except for the fact that you texted me from China saying you weren’t going to talk to her anymore?
So soon after that, we stopped hanging out with her.
Later, we were once again joined by B (surprise, surprise)
And then we got closer.
There was the big fight that threatened our friendship thanks to me being jealous of her?
K so after that, we were joined by the big clique.
They kind of didn’t like me, but they came for you only.
But guess what?
They had to accept me cause of you.
So yeah, then they were bad mouthing me and all.
You knew but didn’t dare to tell me some stuffs and I think this is the start where you started to keep things from me yeah?
So after that this year, the clique broke up.
Cause of betrayal, lies, deceit, pretence, all.
But no matter how much we fought we others and everything,
The both of us still remained as thick as..what was that word?
Thick as water?
Haha k smth like that.
So anyways since this year started, I noticed a you changed.
Not a little, not for the better.
But for the worse.
Maybe you were affected by others I guess?
Well I cannot judge you or anyone but I just miss my bestf yeah?
Hopefully, seeing this will make you think and perhaps I can get my bestf back yeah?
I’m not letting this be over cause I treasure it all yeah.
Maybe we can sort this out soon and get this done and over with.
Cause I think this is a friendship to be kept, one that will keep us till we get married, (you to EHEM and me to, EHEM)
HAHA. So yeah it’ll keep us through we get white hair together yeah.
Praying for the best ^^

K so last Sun was Feast Day and I think it was one of the best days I had in a long long long longggg time.
Took lotsa Polaroids with people that I love.
And I mean it literally.
HAHA.
K so had a Polaroid with Maddy, Chiara, Chris, and Russ.
The picture look so nice in my wallet sia.
HEHE ^^
And had another one with the class.
Oh speaking of which, I think the class was really bonded after that.
I think what made me realize that was Gab had to trust Chris to paint his “moustache”.
And then Tim said goodbye to everyone and refused to leave until he said goodbye to everyone.
I mean we really bonded.
I likey this class.
Had another photo with Legion.
I kept the one with all the girls in a semi circle one.
HAHA.
I came back and realized I damn maluh.
I should have took the one with the ENTIRE Legion for keepsake manns.
Make me so angry >:
HAHA.
So anyways, I really bonded with the people that day.
Like totally. I mean I felt really close to Jan that I sat on her lap yknow.
And anyways, I love this bunch of people, my church community.
God really has a special way of bringing us together yeah?
HAHA.
This bunch of people made me forget abt my unhappiness, for a moment, at least.
Thank God I have them or I think I’ll feel that the world is just filled with cruel people eh.

OK so I think I ranted enough and talked too much today. HAHA.
K so the next time I’m up then I’ll spam picture of feast day yeah?
Kk I’ll be off now. ^^

PS: I really really totally miss you dear. Yes it is who you think it is,
My bestfriend.
Talk to me soon yeah?
I’ll be keeping you in my prayers ^^